The Stuck Steer

Gazing up and around, I soaked in the sight of the ranch land pastures - a kaleidoscope of colour. Greens galore: spring green of new grass and birch leaves, dusty green of fir and pine needles, and evergreen of distant forests. Rusty reds: pine trees devastated by pine beetle armies and fir trees dead from previous drought. Calming neutrals: weather-worn grays of tree bark and fence posts along with milk chocolate browns of the rich soils. This mid-May view was topped with sprinklings of bright sunshine yellow wild sunflowers and dandelions, growing in clumps along the road spreading out into the fields. As I absorbed the serenity of this rural scene, I realized that something was missing! Where were the cattle and sheep that usually dot these rolling hills?

Upon checking in at the ranch where our rental cabin was, I asked the owner where were the cattle. As we do not usually travel this way in the winter, it had not occurred to me that, of course, the ranchers bring their livestock into their barns over the winter. Although the ranch we were at is very large, the owners do not keep their own cattle but rather lease out their pastures to other ranchers who bring the cattle there for the summer. As it turned out, they expected the rancher to start delivering his cattle the next day! Hooray, I thought, I will get to see some real ranching up close!

Fortunately, our cute little log cabin overlooked the corral. About mid-morning, I heard a lot of clattering and other noise. Realizing that the cattle had arrived, I found a spot nearby to watch the procedure. The cattle were loaded off the trailer down through a narrow fenced passage from which they burst out into the large soil-filled corral. Knowing little about the habits of cattle, I watched with interest as they immediately went to the fence to eat the grass growing on the other side. They appeared jubilant at the prospect of eating real grass rather than the hay and other feed they received during the winter. (Really, I am only guessing, here!) I made two observations: they looked like only steers (no females) and I guessed they were about one year old. The cattle trailer left and I wondered what would happen next.

The cattle moved around the corral in herd-mentality formation: one steer moved to a spot then all the others followed. As I watched ten or twelve gather at one end near a gate, I noticed some rapid movement within the pack. Were they trying to rustle each other out of the way, or was it just playful interaction? Some of the cattle moved away and I saw that one was kicking his rear legs and swinging his rear-end back and forth. What was going on? I watched through my camera’s telephoto lens for a closer view. Curiously, it appeared that, while reaching for the grass under and beyond the fence, a steer had got his head stuck between some metals bars of the gate! Feeling a mixture of amazement and pity, I watched and wondered how the steer would free itself. By this time, the herd had moved to the other end of the corral, but when they realized something was wrong many returned to keep the stuck steer company (if cattle really had that instinct). After a few minutes, though, the herd returned to feeding at other places along the fence. My amazement and pity turned to cautious desperation – no one was around to help the steer. What should I do? I put on my boots and coat thinking I should let the landowner know, even though the cattle were not her responsibility. As I hesitated, not sure where to find her on the very large property, the solution came into view.

A pickup truck with three sheepdogs in the back came up the road pulling a horse trailer. Out jumped the rancher dressed in the essential cowboy outfit: felt hat, boots with spurs (!), jeans with a large silver belt buckle and a classic cowboy shirt. Help had arrived! I walked toward him. “Hello there! Are you in charge of these cattle?” “Yes.” “Just want you to know that one is stuck in the bars of the gate.” Now everything would be fine so I returned to my viewpoint perch and watched the rescue begin.

The rancher pulled his horse out of the trailer, securing ropes to the saddle while commanding his dogs to remain in the pickup truck (presumably not needing them for this rescue operation.) The landowner joined him (a cowgirl in her own right) but cell phone calls to several others for help were unanswered. Having moved much closer to the excitement, I listened to the conversation between to two as they discussed various solutions to free the steer. Apparently, the steer had turned his head on an angle sideways to reach through the bars of the gate to the grass, but now could not figure out how to turn his head that same way to escape. “Cows are stupid!” the rancher said. Although both ranchers tried to turn the steer’s head with their hands, it was too heavy and the steer too stubborn to comply. The solution: get the steer to lie down on his side so that his head would be turned sideways and then they could pull him out. Easier said than done! After many attempts with the ropes and much pulling, they got the steer to lie down. Then using the ropes they had tied around the rear legs, the rancher, on horseback, pulled the steer and his head came free! Seeming not worse for the trouble, he quickly got up and trotted over to his friends with much moo-ing in greeting! What a relief! I quickly returned to my safe viewing perch, now out of the way of the rancher as he opened the gate and, with his dogs’ help, moved the cattle from the corral out to the nearby pasture.

As this rescue scene unfolded in front of me, another story of rescue came to mind: the Parable of the Lost Sheep that Jesus told his disciples while speaking to them about the importance of children in the Kingdom of Heaven.

“If a shepherd has one hundred sheep, and one wanders away and is lost, what will he do? Won’t he leave the ninety-nine others and go out into the hills to search for the lost one? And if he finds it, he will surely rejoice over it more than over the ninety-nine that didn’t wander away! In the same way, it is not my heavenly Father’s will that even one of these little ones should perish” (Matthew 18: 12-14).

How wonderful that God provided me with this real-live picture of His concern for each one of us. How thankful I am that Jesus rescued me from eternal death so that I may live with Him in heaven forever. Even when I wandered away from the relationship I had started with Him, He kept watching out for me and met me in my time of trouble, forgiving me for my sins against Him, and welcoming me back into the arms of His family.

Dear Reader, if you have wandered away from God and now feel lost without Him or are in deep trouble, call out to Jesus and He will come to your rescue. Do not delay, for it is better to be in His corral under His protection than out in the wilderness!

Out of the Dark, into the Light

“God is light; in him, there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth” 1 John 1:6 NIV.

Ok, I confess, I am a liar! This verse makes it clear to me. Now I see that I have been walking in darkness; yet still claiming to have a relationship with God. What is “walking in darkness”? How do we know when we are “walking in darkness”?

Darkness is anything that is not about God, because it is not light. Darkness is an attachment, or attraction to, a thing, idea, or person who is not of God. Darkness, bondage, strongholds – all these stop us from experiencing our full godly potential. They are the weapons of the evil spiritual forces and powers that aim to divert us from God’s light (Ephesians 6:12).

Through prayer, God revealed to me certain areas of darkness in my life. Through reflection of my current state of mind and body, God revealed the lies and deceptions in one area of my life. (Yes, one thing at a time!) I have been in the dark and it is not pretty. Mental confusion, emotional heartache, physical pain, and spiritual loss – they are all there in the darkness.

In the darkness, my mind holds onto statements of my uselessness. “I don’t have the abilities to serve God the way I think he is calling me, such as writing the faith stories of other Christians.” “No one wants to share their story for the purpose of encouraging others on their faith journey.” “Everyone wants to keep their struggles to themselves.”

In the darkness, my heart aches as I grow sad about my uselessness. Depression comes on – “I can barely think straight enough to write anything.” Hope is lost – “What’s the use of even thinking about writing.” Anger strikes out – “What is the matter with me?” Frustration overtakes – “If I can’t write, what else can I do?”

In the darkness, my body aches as my arthritis flares up. A tension headache lasts for several days, sometimes forcing me to lie down and do nothing. My lower back stiffens up more than usual. “Why won’t the pain go away? Am I going to die?”

In the darkness, my spirit searches for God, but finds only dark. “God must think very little of my abilities. I must be a low priority to him.”

Stop already! Barb - turn to God! Pick up your Bible and meet him there in his Word! He is there, waiting for you to focus on him!

Jesus spoke, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” John 8:12.

Yes! That’s it! I remember! Somehow I got sidetracked by subtle evil ways. Oh, no more!

In the light, my mind focuses on “whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, praiseworthy” (Philippians 4:8). In fact, God did give me abilities: “A spiritual gift is given to each of us as a means of helping the entire church” (1 Corinthians 12:7 NLT). What joy!

In the light, my heart recognizes the fruit of the Spirit that lives in me: “love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control” (Galatians 5:22). I am not useless – I can use all of these great qualities to make a difference in people’s lives!

In the light, my body, ahhhh; the pain has subsided. A day with only one pain pill needed. Movement is improved – I can get out and about to serve others in the name of Christ.

In the light, my spirit bathes in God’s point of view about me: “Barb, I have examined your heart and know everything about you. I know when you sit down or stand up. I know your every thought even when I am far away. I, Almighty God, have charted the path ahead of you and tell you where to stop and rest. Every moment I know where you are . . . I go before you and follow you . . . I place my hand of blessing on your head . . . you can never escape from my Spirit and my presence . . . I made all the delicate, inner parts of your body and knit them together in your mother’s womb . . . You are wonderfully complex and marvelously constructed – how well you know it! . . . I have precious thoughts about you, so many they outnumber the grains of sand . . . When you wake up I am there for you!” (based on Psalm 139).

O Lord, now I know when I am walking in the light! Help me to weld these truths to my mind and my heart. You do have special work for me to do – I just need to pray, watch, and walk on your path. O Lord, your Word is my focus; forgive me when it is not. You give me mercy, forgiveness and love. I am out the dark, and in the light! Praise to you, Lord!

Postscript: Beloved reader: On the same day that I post this blog entry, a friend sent me someone's faith story that needs editing! God is indeed faithful!

Still a Rebel!

They are sitting there on my kitchen counter where I am easily reminded to take them - my numerous health supplements, that is. Frequently, I ignore them, then wonder why I have health issues. Today, I saw them again, but stopped in my tracks just out of arm’s reach . . . the voices in my head spoke with raised pitch:

Me: What is the matter with me? Why don’t I just take these health supplements as prescribed? I am such a rebel! Why does good health require following so many daily habits?

Good Voice: You know you want good health. The supplements are good for you. Go ahead.

Bad Voice: Surely you can do without them. Surely, God will heal you without you having to go to the effort to take them every day.

Good Voice: It’s a simple thing just to take them. Just imagine how healthy your body will be with the proper nutrients inside it.

Me: Right! I’ve been saying to myself and my kids, “Take care of your body now, so that in 20 years it will be healthy.” I certainly don’t want to be a hypocrite, OR a bad example.

Bad Voice: But, really, you’re not that sick now, are you?

Me: Well, it’s not like I’m bed-ridden . . .

Good Voice: But you might be in 20 years if you don’t take care of these things now. Be good to yourself - just take the supplements!

Me: Hmm, do I want to be good to myself? I’d have to give up some attitudes such as self-pity, stubbornness, and using my aches and pains as excuses to avoid certain activities. These changes may make me more available to serve God – I am scared of the unknown!

Bad Voice: Right, you don’t like change, even your family has made that observation about you. And, who really knows if you’re going to live for another 20 years anyway!

Good Voice: Beloved, this is what God says to you:

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me. I will be found by you,” says the Lord. “I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes.” Jeremiah 29: 11-13 NLT

Good Voice: Since God loves you so much and has so many wonderful plans for you, he wants you to be healthy enough to enjoy them. He’s even provided us with knowledge on how to keep our bodies as healthy as possible. God knows your body and wants you take these supplements, AND, I might add, go for your walks.

Me: Lord, help me; help me to love myself as much as you do! Spirit – block these Bad Voices, send them away, in the name of Jesus Christ. Lord, release me from the captivity of negative thoughts, poor self-image and rebellion. Help me to focus only on your Voice. May I happily accept the necessities of these daily health regimens! May I look with hope to the blessings you have prepared for me. Thank you, Lord!

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